An ensemble?

Since Jennifer has been here we have been focusing more on the ensemble and ways to improve it. It seems that when we make three steps forward we take five steps back. For example, last week there was a fight in our facebook group and many things were said that were insulting and hurtful to many people. I didn't check the group that night so I was very confused when it was brought up in our next class. As a result of the fight the showcase was almost canceled. I think that reality shocked everyone. However, since then, no progress has been made to improve our ensemble. 


I gave some ideas to help bring us together as an ensemble that we could do outside of school without the supervision of Dr. Hartley and Mr. Warren. I strongly feel that as long as we rely on them to build our ensemble, we will never actually make any progress. Therefore, I suggested a few ensemble building activities and as usual, my ideas were dismissed. Lorenzo and Emily were the only members of the ensemble that thought my ideas were good and possible. All of the others thought they were too time consuming and not worth it. 


I think this attitude into building our ensemble is harmful not only to the ensemble in general, but also to my role in it. I often get accused of not participating and putting effort into the class. I tend to be very quiet in all of my classes however, I am not mentally absent. I may not talk a lot but I observe and notice things that occur. However, when I do give my opinions, they are always shot down or not taken notice of. 


This time specifically (with the exception of Lorenzo and Emily), no one would listen or have faith/trust in me. It makes me feel like my voice isn't valued and it frustrates me when members of the ensemble say that I don't contribute because I actually do.